Writer's Block: Deal or No Deal
Mar. 6th, 2009 01:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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Well given the reasons I turned the two people down who I did turn down, they're quite simple. I am not your mother, I can barely keep a sane head on my shoulders and I value my solitude, being clingy and needy are not going to endear me to you. I am a horrible narcissist sometimes, and I'd rather not catch up anyone in the whirl of crazy who can't cope with it.
The other one was even more selfish, which was, you are more breakable than I am. I am not particularly tough, but various things about my upbringing have pretty much made me self-reliant and I expect people to be able to look after themselves to a similar level that I can (all other things being equal). This guy couldn't.
Most selfishly, and I admit it, is that I want to want to have a sexual relationship with the guy. I have friends with whom I have great Romantic (note the capital R) relationships with, both male and female, and I'd happily do many things for them, however, if it's a romantic (lower case) relationship, I don't think a little spark is too much to ask for.
I've long since learnt that I have a thing for the iron fist in the velvet glove, and lots of my friends lack either the velvet glove or the iron fist.
Song most verily apt is 'Facts of Life' by Black Box Recorder - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eW0ijvK_uRk
We have lost the art of both the velvet glove and the iron fist.
Matters not helped by the one guy who did fit said characteristics, well, I introduced him to his girlfriend. Although both have agreed that I have first dibs on her if they ever break up. (I will always have little sister status to him. I don't mind, because that's cool in its own way.)
Well given the reasons I turned the two people down who I did turn down, they're quite simple. I am not your mother, I can barely keep a sane head on my shoulders and I value my solitude, being clingy and needy are not going to endear me to you. I am a horrible narcissist sometimes, and I'd rather not catch up anyone in the whirl of crazy who can't cope with it.
The other one was even more selfish, which was, you are more breakable than I am. I am not particularly tough, but various things about my upbringing have pretty much made me self-reliant and I expect people to be able to look after themselves to a similar level that I can (all other things being equal). This guy couldn't.
Most selfishly, and I admit it, is that I want to want to have a sexual relationship with the guy. I have friends with whom I have great Romantic (note the capital R) relationships with, both male and female, and I'd happily do many things for them, however, if it's a romantic (lower case) relationship, I don't think a little spark is too much to ask for.
I've long since learnt that I have a thing for the iron fist in the velvet glove, and lots of my friends lack either the velvet glove or the iron fist.
Song most verily apt is 'Facts of Life' by Black Box Recorder - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eW0ijvK_uRk
We have lost the art of both the velvet glove and the iron fist.
Matters not helped by the one guy who did fit said characteristics, well, I introduced him to his girlfriend. Although both have agreed that I have first dibs on her if they ever break up. (I will always have little sister status to him. I don't mind, because that's cool in its own way.)
